Turns out I wasn't alone yesterday because it was Dylan's turn to be feeling bad. He wasn't as bad as Kennedy was with her fever but his stomack hurt and he didn't want to eat. So I kept him home with me but he really wasn't too bad.. He just layed on the couch watching tv while I did my usual cleaning routine but then I finally got him to eat a bit and he was better. He came with me to the grocerie store and when we came back had a little more to eat for lunch. I then went out to shovel the yard because it had snowed and I forgot how much of a workout that was ! But I enjoyed it cause it was really nice out. When I came back in, I got Dylan to come up at the table to work on one of his school projects he is doing on Penguins. When we had went out earlier, we got a bristol board for him to use as a visual when he would present. He really enjoyed it and we had a nice afternoon working on that. At 3, we walked over to get Kennedy at school and when we came back, they played a little while I started getting dinner ready.
Curtis came home around 4:15 as usual and was really calm and nice. As for Kennedy, that temper of hers got out of it and I actually had to bring her up to her room because she was being naughty with her brothers. She didn't quite like that but Nicole later told me "You sometimes have no choice to do so because you can't just let her get away with things like that". She finally calmed down.
While I was getting dinner ready after that, I got this pain all on my upper left side.. Like between my breats and my hip... And when I'd walk, it would just be so painful.. I would of cried (again lol) but I didn't ! It already happened to me once when I was back home but I couldn't remember what I had done to make it feel like that.. I figured it was either the shovelling or carrying Kenny upstairs.. Either way, I did something wrong.. It just felt like I streched something.. Wasn't too fun. So I was just looking forward for the kids to have their dinner, Nicole to get home to take Curtis to practice and to just sit down with Dylan and Kennedy. After dinner, they all went out to play with the neighbors. Nicole got home around 6:15 and after having a bite, she and Curtis got in the van and left. But they were back about 10 minutes later !! Turns out the practice was tonight ! So since they were back early, Nicole and I both told Curtis we had to get some homework done. But of course he got in a mood and just started fooling around and being mean. After giving him a few chances, I just told him he was on his own. His mother warned him and told him he wouldn't get his Ipod for the weekend if he didn't cooperate. After having him say he was sorry and being alote more calm, I finally managed to get some work done with him.
It's ok because it all got done but once again.... So much trouble to finally do it. It makes me sad because I know he doesn't mean anything he says or does when he acts like that but then again.. you just feel like going into that head of his and fixing everything.. Would be so simple. Fortunately he has a Doctor's appointment next week to talk about how to handle his emotions and frustrations.. So hopefully that'll help. Anyways I was just right out of it when we finally got done.. I grabbed my computer and went downstairs to talk to Jean-François and cry a bit lol ! So tired. I just feel like I haven't rested at all during the holidays and it catch up to me.. And I was just in a mood where I was thinking "Why is it that they can't go just one day without causing any drama".. It was just a big night and for the first time, I noticed how hard it can be on yourself when you are mad... I am rarely mad like I was last night at Kennedy and then at Curtis. Even Nicole was saying she finds they are getting worst and disrespectful... I mean they are good parents and the kids can be really nice.. But they all have their issues and it makes me realize how you really have to be careful when you raise your children..
If there is one thing I will definetly have learned threw out this experience, it's that one of the most important things I will be teaching my children will for sure be RESPECT. Being grateful for what they have and appreciate what others do for them. And also learn to talk.. I understand Curtis has his own problem and he has trouble controlling himself.. But D and K could do much better. And even if you make your own rules, it's hard to have them listen all the time because you can't just change their routine completely. After all, I am not their parent.. and they've had different nannies too so that doesn't make it easy because they get attached and used to the way they work.. and then another one comes in.
So anyways when I went down to my room last night I was played right out.. Headache, Side/back whatever you wanna call it pain, and a faraway boyfriend. Nothing to help my "sad complaining phase" lol. Anyhow.. After talking to Jean-François and feeling better, I jumped in the shower and stayed in there for so long ! I just leaned over on the bar on the wall and put my head against the shower wall.. So the hot water was just running directly onto my painful side... Felt SO good.. I stayed like that for about 10-15 minutes lol ! So meanwhile I got to think.. I calmed myself thinking of how much I will have learned in my time here and how much I will appreciate what I have even more. Not that I don't, but I will definetely realize it even more. I just had to pull myself together if I wanted to calm down and have a good night sleep. God knows I needed it.
When I came out of the shower, my side was so warm that it was almost numb and I didn't feel it much anymore so.. I took some painkillers I have for when I have my period (which just ended so NO Joyel I am not pregnant lol) and layed in bed.. I sent a message to my prince to let him know I was already doing much better and I knew he was going to see it when he got up at 4am and that his day would be better. I put on one of my shows on my computer but didn't even make it threw the first 10 minutes.. By 9:15, I was sound asleep. Did I mention I made a prayer for my next day to be better ?
Although I love having Kennedy home because she is really sweet and fun, I am kind of looking forward to friday (tomorrow) because I will be alone ! Does that sound mean ? Anyhow, either or not it does, that's what it is ! Lol ! Maybe that's another reason I've been a bit tired this week too... I usually have 3 days where I am alone and can do my stuff at my own pace but this week, with them being sick, I will only have 1.. which is tomorrow ! And I know this weekend will probably be hectic a bit because Nicole told me she might need my help for hockey because she is alone. But at least, as bad as it sounds, I won't have to deal with any drama.. I will only be driving one of them and back. We will see, she will let me know tomorrow how things will go down ! But at least I can sleep in. Anyways... Gotta get off this couch and have Kennedy moving a bit ! She is just as lazy as me ! We might do crafts and she wants to go play outside later so I will try to get my stuff done right away before I fall asleep !
How bad have my two last blog entries been ? Frig I am sorry. I just want this week to be over so we can start a new one on the right foot :) And i'll say like I told my boyfriend... Sorry for all the complaining but it sure feels good to let it all out. LOVE <3
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