Seriously ?

Hello !

When I went to bed thursday night after having a chat with my prince, i fell asleep almost right away. And I was SO looking forward to the next day to be alone for a little. So after getting the kids to school after a pretty good morning with them, I came back home and got right into my cleaning and laundry doing so I could at least have my afternoon to relax. Which I did. I watched a few episodes of Dexter and had a little nap. At 3, I walked over to get Kennedy and not long after the boys came in from school around 4:30, Gail came in. She was sleeping over to help Nicole out with hockey the next day.

So saturday (yesterday) all I really did was pretty much maths.. Around 6, Nicole and Curtis got back from his game. She had dinner over at a women's house with other mothers from hockey. Dylan and Kennedy were spending the night at Gail and Ron's. So Curtis and I drove Nicole to her ladies night and then went to Blockbuster's to rent a movie. It was a nice and quite night with Curtis and the whole time I just kept thinking... Why can't they be this way all the time. When he is alone, he's an angel. Anyways... The movie was "Despicable me" and ended around 9:30 so he went to bed right after. As for me, I went down to my room and had a good chat with Jean-François until about 11:30. And the thing is even after he went to bed, I wasn't even tired.. you know how you sometimes get to that point where you ain't tired anymore.. I regretted it because around 9:30 I could of actually fallen asleep !! But instead, after saying our goodnights, I put in Sex and the City 2 and watched it all... Needless to say I was pretty tired after that ! So I had a good night sleep and woke up this morning around 9:30, which isn't too bad :)

I woke up thinking my two last days were pretty good and that hopefully, it meant my coming week was going to be also... But then Nicole just told me that she got a phone call and her grandfather is in the hospital and isn't doing too good. I didn't even ask where he is.. I think in the States not too far. Anyways, depending on the updates they get today, her and her sister will probably fly to go see him tomorrow... And Brian only fly's in tuesday around midnight which means I will be alone with the kids until then. SERIOUSLY ?

Like... I know it isn't anyone's fault but I just wish I could get a little break or at least a normal, regular, week. I sincerely hope he gets better (For the family first, but also for me). Just when I was starting to get a hold of myself and stop worrying and crying lol... Just when the only things that were now bothering me were my math test and missing my boyfriend... This happens. And if the kids were angels I wouldn't worrie as much but you just never know how they will act. There so unpredictable. And it's always at night that its the worst. Tomorrow they all go to school so I will have the day to relax and prepare myself for what will be a hectic night I am guessing. The boys both have Lacrosse (at least it's in the same place, at the same time) but anyways. Like I was telling Jf earlier.. I am sure I am seeing this bigger than it actually is.. I mean I have babysat kids a whole lot and threw nights also but.. These aren't easy kids all the time. And like I say, unpredictable.

Tomorrow I will definitely take a warm bath and light my anti-stress candle Nicole got me for Christmas lol. It really isn't making me sad (As it would of last week), but it just kind of makes me mad. I just keep thinking why ? Seriously. And I kinda feel bad complaining about this when a poor 85 year old man isn't doing well in a hospital but.. En tout cas !

So today, plans have changed since Gail is taking a 2pm flight to go see her father. So Ron will bring Dylan and Kennedy back home but then, Nicole will drive over to Orangeville for Dylan's 5o clock game. So I will stay with Curtis and Kennedy and go to C's 3pm practice. So I will actually be working today too between 3 and approximately 7 or 8ish. Way to go for the weekend lol. But it doens't matter, bigger pay I guess that's all. Trying to see the positive things here haha. And I was telling Jf too.. I can actually go to Pittsburgh with the family by the end of february.. Dylan has a tournament and we will also be going to see a Penguins game. Before Christmas when nothing was sure yet and we were still waiting to see if Gail could go, I was SO excited about it and hoping I could go. But now that I know I can but that there is all this crap going on... I don't even care. Like I know when it gets closer and that it's actually time to go, I will definetly be excited about it, no worries. But for now, I simply just don't care.

So anyhow, hopefully things will get better and my two next days, as well as my whole week will be good. Nothing sure yet (with everything that is happening), but I might fly to Qc next friday to go spend some time with Sara Ann. It's my 4 day weekend and we both need it ! So I'm just waiting to see what the updates will be but.. I'd love it. Wish me luck <3